just a chick from Trinidad writing about her life on a small island but with big dreams all the same.

Sunday, May 28, 2006


Thanks you guys thanks for the kind words.

Heres the thing, to communicate, to open up to let someone see that side of you that deep down venerable little girl inside this adult body is a risk, because then you give that person power over you. It takes trust and when trust goes its hard to get back it takes work.

I've learned that the people who could hurt you the most are the people you love. I mean a stranger telling you that you are fat and ugly doesn't hurt at all you just tell yourself ah... poor thing missing out on an opportunity to get to know the fabulous me.... but someone you love telling you this stings, hurts deeply i don't know if i am making any sense. Trying not to go into too much detail here.

I don't want to become the kind of person who keeps everyone at arms length you know coat my heart with a suit of armor never let anyone in so that i don't get hurt but i am slowly becoming that person maybe its my age maybe i am losing the naive innocent want to believe everyone is good side of me.

Anyway i have made a one month contract with myself for the month of June.

1. Take better care of skin (moisturise all over after every shower and cleanse tone and moisturise face twice a day)

2. NO ALCOHOL of any kind you can't hold your alcohol and being drunk over the toilet is never attractive. ( I drank one beer last week and know now i am allergic to alcohol).

3. I am allowed to be sad and depressed only three times this month if i'm smart i'll spread it out and not use it all up by the 3rd.

4. Make date with self once a week be it mall, movies or just going to the library.

5. Some form of vigorous exercise 30 minutes three days a week minimum.

6.No apple pie actually no sweet pastries of any kind for one month.

7. Put away the scale for one month try to feel weightloss thru the fit of my clothes instead of a number on the scale ( this will be the hardest thing to do).

Reward for keeping contract with self is that pair of red sexy shoes in the mall that I have my eye on.

Have a great week!


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Great contact!! Good luck!

JaG @ work

4:41 AM  
Blogger Abeni said...

Well that's a good plan.Stick to it

8:17 PM  
Blogger Ri said...

Nice plan. All the best.

11:19 AM  
Blogger CoolDestiny said...

I'm all for everything you have on this list, particularly 1,3 and 4. I know you can do it! We're all rooting for you!

1:46 PM  
Blogger Jdid said...

it is hard to open up but sometimes its got to be done but i can relate to that trust thing.

the contract looks good. stay positive, try and stay away from the depression.

5:37 PM  
Blogger Lily said...

I really hope and pray you get your shoes.

7:31 PM  
Blogger Mad Bull said...

Good luck widdit, girl!

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