just a chick from Trinidad writing about her life on a small island but with big dreams all the same.

Monday, January 30, 2006


A colleague of mine took a sick day to attend a fete and made the front page of one of our local newspapers.

I know I should not laugh but its too funny I don't know why people think in this small island of ours a person would even dare take a chance like that unless you are like me and can use your twin as a cover if you get caught.

So today we've been racking our brains trying to think of a good excuse he could use for being at that party the only thing we could come up with is that his doctor asked him to meet him at the fete to give him his medication but thats so weak another suggestion was on his way home he saw the crowd and did not realize it was a party he saw the crowd and wanted to find out what was going ,yeah thats weak too.

If you guys have any suggestions will really appreciate it what would you do in a situation like that ? I guess he could always say it wasn't him in the pic just someone who looks like him.

On the topic of work my boss sent me to a seminar recently and one of the things the lecturer told us was that people like me who work night shift no matter how healthy they are will cut six years out of their life just like that no matter how healthy you try to live he said our bodies were designed to sleep at night and it goes against nature working at night it scared the heck out of me because I LOVE working nights been doing it for almost 5 years now and can't imagine having to change now.

Trini Carnival...

I love this time of year in Trini because the gyms are full to the brim with people like me trying to lose 50 lbs in one month to fit into a costume this week they are starting the free aerobics in the savannah so if you come to trini from now until carnival you can get a free workout twice a week the savannah in my area are hosting the workouts on Tuesdays and Thursdays or you can go to the Queen's Park Savannah on Mondays and Wednesdays. Its a lot of fun to do the workouts they serve refreshments after.

I always wonder why we can't keep it up after carnival then we wouldn't have to be rushing around for carnival I guess its a trini thing to like to do things at the last minute.

I think I loosed a few more pounds afraid to check the scale but I wore a jeans today that I was able to take off without unbuttoning so thats a good sign my girlfriends think I wear my clothes too loose but I never liked tight clothes the sausage look is just not for me but I'll try to go to the mall this week and weigh myself to see.

Have a great week my blog friends!!

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Making up....................

I am so happy today can you tell?

Thank you cartoon network for keeping the 5 year old busy today so that I could get my groove back hee hee heeee wink* wink*

I can't believe that things are great between us again I thought for sure this was the end and even though the problem hasn't gone away I am so glad that we are back on speaking terms and we could solve this problem eventually or come to some kind of agreement.

I love this man with all my heart and will try to be a better wife in the future and not panic and think he doesn't love me anymore if he puts things at the top of the fridge where I can't reach it or he doesn't pay me any attention or anything like that.

My girlfriend came over today and the first thing she told me is you had sex and I tried to deny it I told her its this new avon face cream but she did not believe me.

Can you really tell when someone has had sex? What is the give away? I remember when my father gave us girls the sex talk don't know why my mom didn't give us the talk anyway he told us he will know exactly when we start having sex so don't even go there and I truly believed him.

Oh and one more thing I don't understand why the local media is making such a big deal about Wendy Fitzwilliam being pregnant and not being married come on we need to stop judging people its her choice and Keith Smith is right when Brian Lara had his daughter no one said a thing about him not being married so we should wish her all the best you guys know how much I love Wendy because she was the first dark skinned Miss Universe and I truly admire how even though she doesn't have to anymore she still supports and does charity work for the school for children with AIDS.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Hi Hi.............

Things are getting better slowly soon I will be out of this funk.

Its carnival season here and every weekend there is so much fetes to choose from its really hard to choose.

And I don't know how a person is suppose to lose weight to fit into their costume with all these great parties a few weeks ago I went to this fete and they served carviar,escargo,ribs,geera pork, curried crab stuffed dumplings and oh lord just imagine a spread with all the fattening unhealthy delicious things you could want and boy am i unfit I partied during Machel's performance but had to sit out the rest of the show because I am old and can't hold my alcohol I was trying to be a big shot and drink scotch and coconut water mixed never me again.

I have a girlfriend who has been doing her best to get me out of my funk she took me to this fete and ah can't lie I had a ball.

If you have the time you can find a picture of my back with my afro here its the 24th picture in the gallery I know I am just too lazy to post it.

School has started and since the government is paying for this semester I can't afford to fail any subjects so its serious work i'm not proud of my performance last semester I failed two subjects and will have to do them over in the summer I don't have to tell you that Maths was one of the them.

Its a very confusing time right now in my life I can't blog about it all but I am getting support from my friends and I know things will work out.

I still plan to play mas even though I am sure I will be the fattest person in the band I need to do this because I need to stop using my weight as an excuse from living and having fun and doing the things that I really want to do life is short as it is.

Sorry for not posting more often I am just not feeling it these days.

OK Abeni here is the photo of my back.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

I decided to deleted my last two posts because I was very uncomfortable with them this blog is becoming an oh woe is me blog which is not my aim I want it to be more of a happy blog not gloomy.
So I am taking a break too need to get back to being the happy person I can be don't know how long it will take but in the mean time I will keep checking up on my blog friends until I feel myself again, hopefully it won't be too long.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

These are the lyrics to a Yolanda Adams song thats going to be my inspiration for 2006

No things to do lists or resolution i'm just going to live.


Visions that can change the world trapped inside an ordinary girl
She looks just like me too afraid to dream out loud
And though it's simple your idea, it won't make sense to everybody
You need courage now
If you're gonna persevere
To fulfill divine purpose, you gotta answer when you're called
So don't be afraid to face the world against all odds

Keep the dream alive don't let it die
If something deep inside keeps inspiring you to try, don't stop
And never give up, don't ever give up on you
Don't give up

Every victory comes in time, work today to change tomorrow
It gets easier, who's to say that you can't fly
Every step you take you get, closer to your destination
You can feel it now, don't you know you're almost there?

To fulfill divine purpose, you gotta answer when you're called
So don't be afraid to face the world against all odds


Keep the dream alive don't let it die
If something deep inside keeps inspiring you to try, don't stop
And never give up, don't ever give up on you


Who holds the pieces to complete the puzzle?
The answer that can solve a mystery
The key that can unlock your understanding
It's all inside of you, you have everything you need yeahhhh
Sooooo, keep the dream alive don't let it die
If something deep inside, keeps inspiring you to try don't stop
And never give up, don't ever give up on you
Sometimes life can place a stumbling block in your way
But you're gotta keep the faith, bring what's deep inside your heart yeah your
Heart to the light
And never give up
Don't ever give up on you
Nooo don't give up,
No, no, no, no don't give up
Oh, no, no, no, no don't...give...up